Coming next will be the feeling of being in someone else’s life. I have gone through this before. Living in a new place, starting a new job. It feels surreal in a way, walking around with new faces in new places. At times you think, “When am I going back to my old life?” only to realize that life is over. I would be lying if I said at times, there isn’t sadness to that realization. But there is also exhilaration too.
In the not so distant future, I will walk into my new office and it will be commonplace. The restaurants around me will not seem as exciting and new. I will probably have settled into at least some kind of routine, although I am hoping the new job will continue to evolve and grow. I will not get into the car every morning with that same level of “What will happen today?” Yes, it will not be as unsettling, but it will also never be as new as it once was.
I always try to remember that. The first times of anything new. I have always been bad at living in the moment, wavering between expecting impeding disaster and constantly thinking, “This would be so much better if……” But in the next weeks, I am going to make that effort. Live in the thrill of learning and finding out strengths I never knew I had.
And remember. The new car smell doesn’t last forever. Neither does the new job feel.