BACK TO THE BLOG TWO

As expected, last year was difficult.  I knew dealing with my insurance company was going to be hard.  I had gone through a fire before, so I knew they were going to be fighting me at every turn.  What I didn’t expect was all the other fights that I would have to face. Utilities, my mortgage company, my contractor, even the post office. Inept and uncaring customer service representatives at every turn. Night after night pouring over insanely complicated insurance settlement letters and spreadsheets trying to figure out what I was paid, what I was owed and what I needed to get my house put back together. I was pushed to the brink again and again, while working long hours at a job that literally sucked the creativity and life out of me daily. Even a well-deserved trip from the job to Europe meant coming home to yet another shit show of spoiled food, no power and the daunting task of finding a new place to live for the third time in five months. The constant level of anger I felt on a daily basis was enormous. I never properly grieved the loss of my neighborhood and later, the loss of my dog.

What I also didn’t do was keep a vow I had made to get back to the blog. Writing about everything meant reliving everything and I just didn’t have it in me. Instead, I spent the hour before I fell asleep watching “Murder She Wrote” reruns. Or my other go to, “Dateline.” Two opposite sides of tv viewing spectrum, but for some reason, I found some solace in both.  I have given up trying to figure out why and just went with it.  But not writing, not doing anything creative, didn’t help.
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I still am not sure  I am ready to tackle sharing everything that has happened, but I am going to give going back to the blog another shot. There is a lot of information about my experiences last year, that need to be out there. And maybe for my own peace of mind, I need to get them out there.
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I hope you will join me as I recount my journey.